Ghost From The Past

Soon we’ll be counting the time, til then you’re mine and it’s bedtime

Turn off the lights, feel the bites of your teeth among my skin you breathe so deep

Lust or love what can I say, it started great and went to gray

But shades exist when Im yours to kiss

So hush and sleep its that midnight bliss


Thoughts – 5:26am

what inspires you?

is it the depth of the sea?

the heat of the lava

the crust on the earth

or gravitational pull on towards earth beyond we will ever know

but take man and man

you won’t know who will have fear

enough to break down all the walls to create

something bigger than themselves

in order to find more power

how? they ask.

engineers will think, then soon to build, then run, and find more evidence

to find out they are exactly what is kept hidden from humans.

there you lie thinking, what is life and why/how am i here.

its 5:26am

i’m lit

turn up


The seas rolling over dry land

Days after the solar eclipse

The irony is strange but the thought of it is grand

Though some are in danger, I feel empathy

To build a better life for me and those that come before me

New waves of energy has shifted into my life

Exposing me to great opportunities and a new light

I’ve found my peace and happiness from this moment in time 

This constant inspiration to become better and healthier

From the moment the moon and the sun aligned, The world has never felt so inclined

To provide positive energy to those who seek greatness

I thank the universe for being on my side and generating a state of sedateness

My First Love

He was without a doubt my first love

We’d go through hell and back just to see each other for another day

We’d hit rock bottom and still come up from the top

We’d fight til we saw blood, sweat, and tears, but our love kept us alive

Everything in life became unimportant, as he was the only thing in my life I needed

To this day I wonder what kept us together after these years, but in all honesty, I’ll never know

Trust was broken, fears laid out on the table, and abusive signs peeked through the fragile glass

Still, we fucking loved each other to pieces

Now imagine if trust was gained and we improved as individuals… sparks would turn into fireworks and set the city on fire

My dearest, my first love, I will always love you

But it’s time that I start loving myself.


I felt love and now all I feel is empty

We strive to hold on but we’ve done that plenty

We got the music to our ears

Smoke within our lungs

Drink in our blood to refrain our tears

We had the world at our feet

Our dreams were reality

The sun gleaming down on us

We were two happy endings

Never the less we were ending

True colors shown through glass mirrors

We fought to keep our love free from errors

Time has come and and the cord was cut

Because this time around I’m being true to the feelings coming from my gut


Lately, I’ve been evaluating my actions, mindset, thoughts, emotions, and the words that come out of my mouth.

All my life I’ve been a free- spirited wild child and I did/said whatever I felt like doing or saying (to whomever); even if it hurt that person. Knowing that the truth was exposed makes me feel better than holding it in because it would only hurt me on the inside.

However, as of lately, I’ve been noticing the actions I make or the things I say to certain people and I’ve been reflecting on those words that were spoken or the moves that were made, because I’m curious to know if it’s the right thing to do or not.

I don’t like to admit this, but I’ve always been stubborn and had a little bit of an anger issue. Those two don’t make a good mix, especially when somebody tries to poke at me or disrespects me. So, when somebody tries to mess with me, I get all riled up, and say things that I don’t mean or act in an aggressive manner (besides being physical) because my emotions go through the roof.

I recently got into a huge argument with my family about the same issue that we’ve fought about for about 3 years, then I realized, for once in my life, where I’m at fault and why the same old annoying argument continuous to be brought up to this day. Instead of pointing fingers at my family and assuming they’re at fault, I tried to understand where I was wrong, and why they felt the way they did about me.

From that point on, I promised myself that I would write about this topic, then find ways to cope with my anger, stress, and extreme emotions.


  1. Listen: I learned to stop refusing to listen to others, because you’re only repeating what you know and you’ll never learn or grow from that point on, until you give other people a genuine listen.
  2. Breathe: Taking a few deep breathes, instead of holding the anger in. It will be beneficial, not only to calm your nerves and stress, but when you take a few breathes, it will help you think more clearer and stay calm.
  3. Think: Think twice before saying something that you will later regret. Think twice before walking out the door and creating a scene or prolonging the argument.
  4. Choose: Choose your battles wisely. If this is something worth fighting over and coming up with a solution, then follow steps 1-3, and finally come to a compromise with the person you are dealing with. If this is not a battle worth fighting for, for you and the other party, then simply drop it.


I hope these tips helped! Take care and love on.


Poem to my Ex – Love Kills

 I gave you my heart, every single piece of it
But there you lied and said you’d cherish it
Things were good at first though it seemed
But those were the highlights of what we previously dreamed
3 months went by until we made the changes
Controlling one another until we’d fed our insecurities in arrangements
Falling in love has never been so easy
We were a perfect match and that’s why we burnt out so quickly
It’s crazy how we go by daily
Treating one another with respect then the next acting crazy
They all say your first love is usually a painted daisy
Due to the love and high that’s produced it makes our minds go hazy
Then came a twisted turn of fate
When we were fighting really late
The sky covered in clouds dark and grey
Thats when we began to realize it was time to run away
Our bond kept us close yet killed us the same day
We knew, for us, the end was near
So we began to stay really clear
Distance grew as our relationship failed
Because the one thing we did wrong was turn tail to bail
Lovers become strangers so easy
Funny how that flows so breezy
But I wish you the best EJA, you were never a mistake.
Now all that I’m left with are memories and a heart break
But this is our chance to grow and avoid any future aches
A piece of you remains in my heart, even though last night you did me wrong
I’ll never forget the person who came
Into my life and put my past to shame
But thanks to you I have grown and learned
To respect my self and body because that shit’s earned.
I hope one day we’ll come to our senses
Avoid our egos and break down these fences
Between our success that stands a wall
Which puts our relationship at expenses
I hope one day we can be friends
By coming together to make amends
Till then farewell
I wish you and your family well


1/1/2016 – 7/28/16